I know I shouldn't think about you,
I know I am putting myself up for
hurt,
But I Can’t help it,
I can't hold my feelings back,
I can't train my heart on what to want.
When u look at me all stands still,
I am blown away by your intensity,
When u hold my hand I freeze, I stall.
I am powerless to squeeze it,
Let u know how I feel.
I am too weak to lift it to my lips,
Brush it with a tender kiss,
I simply malfunction.
I keep my feelings hidden,
But restraint has never been easy,
Each feeling fights so hard,
By the gates to burst open.
In words emotions find escape,
So in the tranquility of the night I write.
In my words I feel passion,
Slowly seep through my fingers.
In my words escapes the sentiments,
I am so compelled to enunciate,
Yet bound behind the walls of my fear.
I am scared I will hurt again,
I am scared for my heart.
It's been broken before,
It's got scars on it.
I am not sure how much more pain it could
take.
I am not sure it could take pain inflicted
by u.
Because you are the one person I want to
kiss them healed.
I wish I could be girl enough and show it.
But bear with me my spell,
I am too scared to try,
Too scared to risk it.
But I await you to take my hand,
And tell me it will be okay,
That we will be fine,
That my dreams aren’t empty,
That we won't cry.
I await you to take my hand,
And bring it to your lips,
And never let it go.
But,
If you won't hold it forever,
Please don't take it,
Because like I have said before,
I don't think my heart would survive another
scar,
Especially one inflicted by you.
